23 - April - 2014
Let's call her,"MAE".Tinext niya ako. Umiiyak siya. Meron na daw kasing iba ang Boyfriend niya. Nagalit ako. Hindi sa boyfriend niya, kundi sa lahat ng lalaking hindi nakukuntento sa kung anong meron sila. Ayun, lumabas ang aking pagiging "Mr. Nice Guy". I comforted her, in a nice way. Naging OK naman siya. At medyo gumaan din ang loob namin sa isa't isa. I jokingly told her, "Babyy, what's wrong?" i think she fell for it. i dont know if it's true, though. She told me she's fine now, and thanked me for it. She slept with a smile on her face.
24 - April - 2014
She started calling me, "baby". I thought she really liked the way i comforted her, because i was there in the midst of her troubles. I called her "Baby" too, knowingly that once i fall in love, everything will never be the same. Since it's my rest day, i spent the whole day talking to her. Messages were full of Smileys, Kisses and hearts. I thought that, "this might be it. this is moment I've been waiting for." Sinabi niya sa akin na, medyo na-BI siya kaya na-huli sya ng 1 year sa school. Nabigla ako. Kasi ang type kong girls eh "Beauty and brains with discipline" talaga. Pero since masaya ako sa kanya, ok lang sa akin ang nakaraan niya. Then she asked me,"ano ba talaga tayo?" my heart skipped a beat. There were butterflies in my stomach. i told her,"siguro patagalin muna natin, since kelan lang tayo nagkakilala." But she insisted na kami na, thru her messages. and she asked me if it's ok na may nakaraan siyang hindi maganda. I told her that anyone deserves a second chance, as long as na di na niya uulitin ang ginawa niya then it's fine by me. The conversation lives on, still with hearts and kisses and never ending "i love you" on each message. i really thought that this might be it.
25 - April - 2014
I told my mom that i finally found a girl worth keeping. I even explained her past. She approved. I went to work full of smiles. It's because i am feeling that feeling i was hoping i would be feeling again (?) (WHAT)
One time, i was trying to call her. She wasn't answering. i texted her,"busy ka ba, by?" (by, short for baby.)
She texted,"di by labyu :*" i noticed there's something wrong. something isn't feeling right. I was like,"okaayy." she told me she's not planning to load up for the night because she's feeling lazy to go out and load up. well ok, that's fine by me. I texted her i am prepared to go home now. SHE REPLIED! she said,"Ok by, ingat :*" i was dumbfounded. i asked,"akala ko di ka magpapaload?" Sabi nya,"sorry by may emergency kasi, yung tropa ko nabanatan kailangan tulong ko :*" well that's not the exact message i received but it's something like that. Siguro ok lang naman sa akin na di siya magload para naman may space kahit papaano kasi mabilis magka-sawaan kapag lagi kayong magkasama or magkatext. I finally got home, i texted her,"nakauwi na po ako. :)" she replied,"ok by :* tulog na din ako. ni-wait lang kita." That message was the last message i received from her. i woke up, i texted her,"goodmorning baby :*" she did not reply. i hope she's still sleeping. I even texted her in the after noon, she's still not replying. i think she used up her load or forgot to register to unlimited texting. i even PM-ed her in facebook. SEEN. boom. i was thinking, what went wrong? who intervened? was it her sister? or she doesn't need me anymore?
then it all came to me in one word, REBOUND.
She came to me broken-hearted and all that and she just left me hanging there. the ride home was the saddest jeepney ride of my entire life. i even thought of divine intervention for the jeep to crash. why? because that's the only way i would know who really cares for me. Then there's this girl who was calling me. siguro itago natin siya sa pangalang,"kaye abad". She arrived in the nick of time. she was worried about me, not answering her calls and texts. she comforted me. just the way i comforted MAE. then she said,"i love you". BOOM. i never expected this from her. i told her,"i love you too." i thought that god was right all along! now is not the time to give up. then we had this lovely conversation. I said goodnight, then she asked me with this great errand,"Hanapan mo ko ng guy na ka text :)" i was like, what?! i asked her,"for whom?"
she replied,
FOR ME.
if she loves me, then why is she in the search for another guy?
i asked her,"what for?"
she said,"for fling or even more than that."
i said,"akala ko ok na ko, hindi pa pala."
that day, was really a rollercoaster of emotions.
this time, my mind raced fast. I want to kill myself now, i want to go to canada and start a new life, or i want to improve myself and make them miserable like telling them,"hey, this is the guy you left in the friendzone."
This year, is probably is not a great year for me. For my love life though. i found work but life in the field of the so-called "love" isnt really for me.
Sincerely yours,
The friendzoned guy.
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